Definition of family

               Family: A group of persons of common ancestry:Clan (1)              Based on this information, you could call them family. ...

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Definition of family

               Family: A group of persons of common ancestry:Clan (1)

             Based on this information, you could call them family. Does family mean love? No, definitely not. You do not love someone and attempt to murder them, rape them while they sleep or cause harm to them in any purposeful way.

              Brain buzzing from the heated argument over the phone, words traveling hundreds of miles and will haunt me until the end of my days. How can someone provide someone a home and if they do not meet their cookie cutter cutout of how a person should behave, throw them to the ground and outside like the scum of the earth, Yet most would not even do that to common trash.When it comes to recycling, 67 percent of adults say they recycle aluminum or metal cans, while 59 percent recycle paper and 57 percent recycle plastic. Just over half of adults recycle glass. (2)

             There is a thought: What if people treat their literal trash better than they do their LGBTQ kids? How scary would that be?  Mother/Father etc saying "Get out, I don't care where you go but take the recycling out as you leave. Oh but make sure it goes in the appropriate bin!"  Child responds "What about me, where will I sleep?" and the parent responds with "It doesn't matter, you are not who I raised and are trash." Are we though? It seems according to the stats that we are lower than trash, for even that you at least try to find the appropriate home first. Otherwise there would be no recycling, rummage sales etc. I am leaving you with this fact:



  • 40% of the homeless youth served by agencies identified as LGBT
  • 43% of clients served by drop-in centers identified as LGBT
  • 30% of street outreach clients identified as LGBT
  • 30% of clients utilizing housing programs identified as LGBT(3)



(1)Family Definition- https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/family
(2) Recycling Facts-https://www.environmentalleader.com/2007/08/25-of-americans-dont-recycle/
(3) Homeless LGBTQ-http://nationalhomeless.org/issues/lgbt/

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Can't even die properly

    He sat alone in the bathtub, in water the temperature between scalding the skin off your bones and perfect, contemplating his next move. "What the hell is happening to me? Maybe the world will just be better without me" . Slowly he grabs the knife, the same one he performed the protection ritual with. Ironic that, when the one thing he needed  protection from was himself. Setting the blade against his alabaster skin he pressed down, almost as if trying to cut through bone. Pressing harder onto the skin, the blade did not waiver and yet the skin did not break. "What the hell?" he thought, realizing he was indeed failing at even killing himself. Looking at the blade and running his thumb down the edge, as one is keen to do when testing sharpness, realized that he could't cut even the softest of food with the damn thing. Looking down at his arm he noticed the only damage done was a scratch that looked better than the ones the damn cats give... "I am a failure. I can't live properly and can't even fucking die properly."

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Get out

"Hidden in darkness, there is no way to escape...there has to be. But how? How do I get through this never ending cycle my mind puts me through? What if there really isn't a way out? What if I am in perpetual fear for the rest of my life? I can't let that happen, I have to get out somehow..."

Excerpt from my new book

How did I get here?

Sweating profusely, I grip the steering wheel while my hands shake as if I have tremors. How did I get here? I know I walked to the car and got in obviously but how did I manage that? Thinking back, I remember walking out of the front door and immediately the fear struck. Is he waiting in the halls, watching to see my next move? Surely not. I have only been here a month or so, there was no way he tracked me that quickly. And yet... I remember thinking I must get back in the house, he must not see me. He can't! I don't want to die! Surely that is what he means to do, after all i did put him in jail. "Go back inside where it is safe, RUN!" is all I could remember. Yet here I am, driving the car whilst the kids laugh and play in the back. The only thing that comes to my mind now is "Did he see me leave?"